IF..

There are so many things you want in life... there are so many things we don't have that others have. Being a human being is the best that i can do and that is DESIRE for more. i see people wearing the clothes i cannot afford i feel sad n then i wish my parents were richer, i wish they could give me more money... i wish i could spend money lavishly like others do. IF only .... is the word that comes to my mind.

Life is not fair of course , but we still live it. Like we envy others there are a lot of people who envy us. We are just never satisfied with wat we have and that my friend happens wen we start comparing ourselves to others. Someone said.. " Compare yourself to what you can do , not what others can do."  n thats exactly what i don't follow.. of course there is courtesy from my folks back home for that. we cant always be what we want to be. I don't know what i am going to do or where my path is leading... but i am going with the flow.. n hope to trigger it someday. Just waiting for the green light.. trying the best that i can do...m still waiting...but in this process... i am doing all that i shouldn't do, hell i count it as experience ,just so i might not miss out on anything in life n later i can say.."I WAS THERE TOO!" .Recounting on all that i did n am doing tho it will be nothing for others ... i'd like to say ... what is there to wish for something which is someone else's wen i can have it all in my own way.. i don't need new clothes to enjoy life... i don't need the best shoes.. i rather prefer dancing bare foot... the way i entered this world... maybe thats who i really am... maybe i wasted a lot of time wanting more... wanting to be like others...n almost forgot myself!

Many a times we focus too much on things around us than ourselves... updated on all that is happening in the world but no updates on our lives... then how are we going to make this life worth living. The word "IF" ruins it all for me... coz i start to wish for something fake to the truth...or  fantasy to reality.So reality bites from time to time is badly if we stick to the ground that has been prepared for us , as long as we learn to be contented with what we are n what we have, as long as life is still ALIVE. i might go gaga over a shoe or a dress in the showroom tomorrow after writing all these but now i will say to myself ... m gonna wear better shoes than that one day.... n i'll just walk away broken hearted with a sad face. tee heehee. well thats what i call life... compromises, sacrifices, and experiences for a wiser tomorrow! cheers to life!